First, the nice news....

I had a fantasic weekend that sort of spilled over into the week. First I helped a friend celebrate his birthday by going to a Richard Cheese and Lounge Against the Machine show. It was hilarious and fun. Then, we proceeded to bar hop like we were youngsters and I met several men, was told I was beautiful several times, and even recieved a marriage proposal. (see engagement photo below, lol) One guy in particular is very sweet and we are supposed to go out to dinner sometime this week. The bad news is, this night of revelry set off a three day assault on my diet. One that I'm not entirely out of yet. (I had sausage with my scrambled egg whites this morning....and hash browns.) I haven't been to the gym all week. Which means I've missed out on 3 days worth of calorie burning. I'm going back tomorrow and I'm going to salvage the rest of today's caloric load by eating fruit and veggies all day.
I really don't feel very well, and when I eat poorly this always happens. So I did not weigh in this morning. I just can't face reality. There are two scenerios that could occur. I might step on the scale and read 151 or less. This would mean that my three day chow down didn't affect my weight at all. Which would probably cause me to think "Cool! I can eat whatever the *&%! I want and not gain a pound...let's get pizza!" OR, the more likely scenario, I step on the scale read 155 and sink into bad thoughts, kicking myself for drinking a bottle of vodka and devouring every spicy tuna roll on the planet. Let's not even mention Cinco de Mayo yesterday.......

So instead, I'm going to acknowledge that I had a great 3 days of debauchery, and am now returning to normal life. The weigh-ins will commence next Wednesday, which means I have a week to whip myself back onto program. And that also means I get to enjoy that feeling of starting anew! It's almost like having make-up sex with myself. But a lot less messy. :)

Weekly Weigh in- Steady As She Goes!

So I'm 151.6 as of this morning, which means I haven't lost anything in two weeks. BUT, I haven't gained anything either, and I've been a very naughty girl.
I had four days last week where I just could NOT stop eating. I woke up completely ravenous! I did continue to count points and it wasn't pretty, but I have been highly active lately.
I was ovulating, which makes me sooo very hungry. It's stupid. I was feeling like I lose the same 5 lbs every month, but then I studied a graph that I made on Excel and realized that my irratic peaks and valleys did have a sort of order to them. Every month I go up and down and every month I go down just a bit lower. So I'm gonna stick to what I do, counting calories/exercise 5 days a week for an hour, and go with the flow.
I reminded myself that I've lost an incredible amount of weight in a relatively short amount of time, much shorter than it took to get there. So I need to respect that perhaps my body is a little tired of losing some of it's energy stores. It will probably take a bit for my body to adjust. And I'm okay with that. :)

Reasons why I lost weight--plus, weekly weigh-in

So, housekeeping first: I weighed in at 151.8 today. Which is +.2 lbs more than I was last week. But I'm not going to worry about it, because I know I ate within my point allowance, as well as got LOADS of exercise in,(an hour a day for the last 10 days! I even had sex and burned off more calories! lol.) So I'm just going to stick with what I've been doing and hopefully have a better report for next Wednesday.

I actually cleaned off my desk yesterday and I found a little post-it note that had fallen in between my keyboard and my monitor. On it I have listed possible names for my children. I'm not married and I'm not even in a seriously committed relationship, BUT I know that someday I want to have a child or two. I was told by a doctor that if I didn't lose weight, I would NEVER have children. This was one of the reasons I decided to start losing weight. Around 175 lbs, I started getting my period again, and I realized I needed to worry about birth control again, so I had an IUD implanted. I haven't had any problems with it (except for the first one falling out!) and I do recommend it for women who know that they don't like hormones and don't want kids for a number of years. Oh, and I do have one continual partner, and if I ever have a new one, you MUST use condoms...okay off the soapbox...

Anyway the point is, I wanted to lose weight to be reproductively healthy, and I am. I've gone ahead and lost 25 more lbs, and would like to lose 15 more. but my little post-it of hope/encouragement is still here and in a way it is still very relevant. I not only want to have children, I want to be healthy enough to run and play with them, to live a long life with them and to teach them how to eat and be healthy and strong. So I've reposted the list on the edge of my monitor, so that I can read those names and promise my children-to-be that I will continue to be healthy for them.

Success! -at this moment-

I have reached some of my goals for the week and failed at others. But today I'm 151.6 which is awesome! Right about now is when I usually start over indulging and rewarding myself for losing weight. But instead I'm going to hold out for one more week.

Goals met:
Activity- I've been to the gym 3 times this week and burned about 1300 calories give or take, I'm planning on going for the next 3 days and matching that. I feel good and sore!
Tracking- I track what I eat every single day and I am conscious of what I eat, and I haven't had a binge for months.

Goals not quite met:
Alcohol-I went to a baseball game with a fella on Saturday and drank and drank and drank alcohol. sigh. So I made it to 11 days without drinking, which I guess isn't bad, but it isn't great either. But even with the added booze I still show a loss of 2.4 lbs. and I drank alotta booze. a LOT. sigh.
Dairy- I went to a mexican restaurant and thought I ordered very smartly, but the beans came with cheese on them...and I ate them anyway....oops.... But I did count the points!

I'm going to continue my goals for next week! I hope everyone is doing well! Can't wait to read all about it!

Weekly Weigh-in and Update

Today I'm 154. And I'm in good spirits! I haven't had any alcohol since the 1st of the month, so one week abstinence is great. I've also decided to try the Wendie plan just to mix things up a bit. For those that don't know, the Wendie plan is basically alternating low calorie,high calorie, moderate calorie days. In the end, I'm not eating any more calories/points than I"m allowed, it just feels like I'm overindulging on some days. Really, it is no different that using the Weekly Points Allowance. It is just another name, and was developed when WW was doing their "Winning Points" or "123....Success" or something. The point is, it gets me excited to count points again, and really that's all that matters.
I've been to the gym twice this week, and I feel great about this. I'm going to start off slow. Just weight training 3x's a week at first. Then I'll add cardio in 2x a week, then 4. By August, I should be showing lots of improvement.
I hope everyone else is doing well in their programs/plans. I'll be scanning all the blogs later and I'll be sure to show some love! Have a great week everyone! Happy Hump Day!

Verdict: Washington State!

So after a few months of feverishly awaiting a response from schools, here is the breakdown:


Catholic University- Accepted! (but, sorry, we have no money for you, God Bless)

UC Boulder- Accepted! (BUT, okay, we won't know if we actually have a spot for you until after Apr.15th)

Texas A&M- Accepted! (Howdy! but, sorry, we have no money for you)

Washington State University- Accepted! And we'll waive your tuition if you work 20 hours a week for us, and we'll throw in a paycheck too. Oh, and we'll fly you up here to see the school and meet your professors. Health insurance too. Please come.

So I guess I'll be leaving sunny, gorgeous Phoenix soon! I have 4 months. Any suggestions for moving to the Pacific Northwest. Specifically a tiny tiny town? (Pullman, WA)

Changing Weigh-in days

I've made some decisions in the last several hours....
Last night I celebrated a friend's birthday and had some beer and shots. Then on the way home I stopped in at a McDonalds (actually two, the first one was closed....) and got a Quarter Pounder meal with a Diet Coke. As I sat in the parking lot and ate, something I swore I would never do again...I realized that I was falling back into my old familiar pattern. Get drunk then eat thousands of calories. The burger was delicious....
But, since it is the first of the month and a time for new beginnings, I have decided to stop this cycle before it begins. No alcohol for me until August 1st. Also, I will begin tracking my food and make the promise to myself that I will do this for a full four months. Also no dairy, it makes me feel tired and sick.

To recap:
For the next four months I will
-abstain from alcohol and dairy products
-track all my food
-work more physical activity into my day
-actually try and lose weight, rather than just talk about it....
fyi-I'm back at 155 lbs. but I FEEL lean....